Hip, Hip JORGE!

Ah, the day has come. Jorge Posada back in the line-up in the DH spot, at least for today. At first, I was nervous and anxious to see what he'd do. I was praying that his time on the bench, stewing about what got him there, perhaps lit a fire in him...and thankfully, it seemed to have.

I don't want to say "I told you so" or "In yo face!" but...I knew this was still in him all along despite what many have said. You don't just pull Grand Slams out of your butthole region at random. I truly believe the trouble with Jorge is mental. He gets too in his own head instead of just going out there and playing.

I don't want to say "He's back" because I feel it's too early for that, but damn, I just think his comeback was like a fairytale. Like Jeter said when he hit 3k..."You couldn't have written a better script."

Time will tell if Jorge is truly back, but while we wait, I'm going to soak up every second of it. It couldn't have happened to a better guy. Maybe some time on the bench was just what the doctor ordered to get his head right.

And now, I will go back to annoying my friends by saying "Hip, hip Jorge" around the apartment some more. :D

That is all.

Poor Jorge

I know I'm late on commenting about this, on here, at least, but here I go. I've been a Yankees fan for as long as I can remember, Jorge's had always been one of our dependable guys. A member of the elite Core Four, outstanding catcher and a fiery tempered spirit on the field. These were/are my reasons for adoring Posada the way I do. This is why Posada's current fate is so upsetting for this Yankees fan.

As we all know, age always becomes an issue in any athletes career. There's no avoiding father time, he's an unbiased jerkoff. Still, I can't help but wish something would click with Jorge and he'd just start hitting better just so he can finish this season decently. I have a feeling it will be his last.

I don't particularly enjoy watching one of my favorites sitting on the bench and frowning. I can only imagine what's going through his head. He's probably just as disappointed, if not more. People need to give him a break. If Posada is like me, which I kind of have a feeling he is, he's probably beating himself up for his lack of performance.

The Yankees really haven't done him wrong until this season, so I won't bash the organization too much. I highly disagreed with the way Girardi dropped Posada to 9th in the batting order. Yea, you can send a guy a signal that he needs to step up, but tell him before the game starts. Tell him in your office and discuss it as adults, friends even.

The Yankees are a team that likes to win. What team doesn't? I just think he deserves more than this. Deserves to leave with his head held high and call it a day the way he has earned to. I fear this will not happen and Jorge will once again be disappointed.

Still, here's hoping that Jorge gets to ride off into the sunset like the champ he is.    

Deaths in Hollywood: Who are we to judge?

It makes me so sad when I read about people insulting the dead. Especially dead celebrities who die from an overdose or suicide. Acting as if that person wasn't someones daughter, or wife. Someones father or nephew. And just because that person had more access to better help in getting over an addiction or a mental health issue, doesn't mean he/she was strong enough to do it and make the decision to get the help he/she needed. And being surrounded by 'yes men and women' who probably all told them how great they were and how he/she was amazing but failed to tell them what they needed to hear, probably didn't help either.

It's very sad that people can be so heartless. Death is not something to joke about. How would you like if when you died, I sat there making jokes about the way you lived your life and how you died? And went through a list of all your shortcomings and mistakes?

It probably won't feel too good looking down or up from wherever you end up when your time comes, will it?

So shut up or I'll wear a red dress to your funeral.

Men and Women - My Dating Rant

Here I am at 26 years old, thinking that most men are slimy jerks and after only one thing. Why? Because all I get is the wrong kind of attention and usually from men in relationships looking to get out. Why? So, they can "hang out" with me. What the hell does "hang out" mean now? I'll tell you and it sure as hell doesn't mean what it used to.

Hanging out is not dating. Hanging out is basically a lazy term for a friends with benefits type of situation. Ideal for any guy looking to get himself balls deep in a girl he likes for whatever reason, but have zero responsibility to her whatsoever. Yes, I said it. Balls deep.

A guy like that would most certainly have to have balls to try that with me or think that was all I was good for.

Case in point: Today, not 1...not even 2...but 3 gentlemen started talking to me while I was at work. One guy I know has a girlfriend because he was in store with her 2 days ago exchanging a watch, which he then brought back for something else. During this exchange, he proceeded to comment on how different I looked with make-up on and my hair down. Asked my nationality. Why I had no ring on my finger. Did I have kids. Things he most certainly was not asking 2 days ago in front of his girlfriend.

Which just confirms my point of view of men lately. All men my age want is something easy. They don't want to work for anything. They want convienience. They want casual and they want arm candy.

I'm no ones arm candy and I refuse to lower my expectations to ever settle for a man less than a GENTLEMAN who will treat me with RESPECT. That's all any woman deserves, in my mind. Luckily for me, I have met a wonderful MAN. He knows I'd kick him in the nuts if he ever disrespected me (lol).

Back to my example from today, I didn't flirt back, I did my job. I gave him nothing to go on. I answered his questions in a way that didn't leave room for further discussion regarding it. But, he came up with more things to say, trying to get me to open up. When I didn't, he eventually gave up and finished with the sale, not before leaving and calling me a "dollface".

Another customer called me "cutie pie" and that's fine, but once again, physical. I realize that everyone is somewhat judged by how they look, but you can bet your ass I don't hear 1/2 of this when I throw my hair in a messy bun and don't wear hardly any make-up to work.

What's different, I wonder? I'm the same. I act the same. I smile, I'm still funny...hmmmm, I can only guess. Could it be the way I choose to wear my make-up? Probably, but why should I change? What the hell have I done wrong?

Not a damn thing. Ugh!

Role Models

Growing up, I idolized not celebrities but ordinary people. People like my Grandfather; Donald Deininger. People who brought honor and pride to every single thing they did. People who just flat out do the right thing by everyone; including themselves. And, that's the way I try to live everyday. I'm not saying every now and then that I won't royally mess up, but I won't screw up without a great deal of personal reflection. A look deep down inside.

I went through a short period of bullying this one kid in middle school. He was a little weird, okay, by most standards, very weird. I would spew off smart assed one liners to make my friends laugh, I would throw out insults that I tried to reason with myself weren't "too bad". But, there's no reasoning with an insult. They're all bad. No matter if it's said with a smile or a laugh. If the person on the receiving end is not smiling or laughing...chances are, it hurt them. And that's not something I pride myself for doing. Which is why that period in my life didn't last long. It wasn't me and it wasn't who I wanted to be. I never went home after doing that, excited to tell my mom about it. If you've done something you can't tell your mom at dinner...chances are it's the wrong thing to be doing.

After that, I felt bad. Really bad. All that kid wanted to do was go to class, eat his lunch and go home. And here I was, making his day shitty. Who was I to do that? Who was I to decide he should have a crappy day? To make him feel bad? When I asked myself this...the only worthwhile answer I came up with was: No one.

No one has the right to make someone feel badly for no good reason. And, I quickly learned that as a stupid teenager. My bullying days ended pretty much as soon as they started. I thought I was hot shit. I had a group of friends who I felt I needed to be a smart ass in front of to be liked and it turned out, that's not why they liked me at all. They liked me because prior to those days, I had been a very accepting person. Someone who was friends with all kinds of people. Someone who liked to make people laugh, to have fun. Being thought of that way was more important to me than feeling like hot shit.

As an adult, I try to surround myself with people who think and feel similarly as I do. These are good friends to have around. Friends with dreams. Friends with drive. I try not to do the wrong thing. I don't drink heavily. I am usually always home at a reasonable hour because I have a responsibility to my job to be there on time, if not early. I've always been that way. I work hard there, even though it's tedious and not particularly what I want to do with my life. You should treat every job as if your life depends on it, make sure by your actions that they know you deserve to be there. In the world we currently live in, we should all be so lucky as to be blessed with a job, no matter how great or thankless. I thank God for my job just about everyday.

I think this way because I looked up to people who worked hard, who earned everything they had and were generous when they could be...and sometimes even when they couldn't be. It's not about you, but the things you do, the things you say. That's what people will remember when you are gone.

Hopefully, someone will remember me that way someday. My little cousin Tara and I have a special bond, she asks me about my time as a ballet dancer when she's having a tough time in her dance classes, asks my advice on dealing with her friends in school. I'm honored to be someone she turns to. And, everyday, I try to live in a way that would make her proud to look up to me. And most of all, I try to live in a way that would make me want to look up to me.

Who do you look up to? Why?

All Star Game 2011

Ok, I voted mostly Yankee on my ballots this year, because I'm biased. Duh! I voted for Mo, Tex and Cano, the faves. But, I kept one name off my ballot for Shortstop and that was Derek Jeter and I wrote in Eduardo Nunez instead. My reasons are complex. I will state them thusly:

1. Age. We want to keep him fresh for when games resume. All Star Games are fun when you're just starting out in the Majors. And the Home Run Derby is a great pissing contest, but when you're Derek Jeter at 37 years old and you've experienced it all many times...you need to consider quality of play after. Someone like Cano can play during All Star break and jump back into a game on Friday with no problem. I don't even agree with A-Rod going in. Sure, he's a "slugger" and he'd be fun in the Derby...but, I don't know. I don't think it's in some players best interests to play.

The All Star Game is a game for those who do well in the first half...this is not Jeter this season unfortunately. And I'm a Yankee/Jeter fanatic. Hence my tattoo. But, I'm not going to put on blinders out of my affection for my team. Derek Jeter is playing like garbage. Yes, he helps us get wins. He's always said "Team wins over personal stats"...but that's getting old. At some point, your stats SHOULD matter to you. Just a little.

2. Injury. He's just come back from an injury, do we want to risk him hurting himself in a game that doesn't count for anything other than deciding who plays where during the World Series? I think not.

Results of Yes Network poll as of 7:30pm today:

Should Derek Jeter play in the All-Star game?

Yes, it is an honor that he shouldn't pass on

57%

No, he should rest and get stronger

42%

 

*Though, chance of injury is still the same for anyone. Playing in this game is a gamble on your 2nd half of the season. I don't like the ASG for this reason, though, it is fun to watch.*

The fans are being selfish. They just want to see him because he's retiring in 3 years.

3. Eduardo Nunez. He has done well in Jeter's place. Wasn't he batting 3.40? That can't be ignored. His fielding is a little erratic as someone said on ESPN. I agree. He's not polished. But, he's a GREAT prospect!
4. His first game back. Was a complete flop! He's too wrapped up in 3,000 to just play ball! Since when has Derek Jeter not been Jeter-like about a milestone?! And why is he doing this now? Stop filming documentaries with HBO about it and just get it over with! Get it together, Captain.

My votes may suprise a few, I voted for Mets' Jose Reyes for the National League team...his game has been ridiculous this season even though he plays for a shit stain team. Now, he's out for his hamstring, so that's not going to happen. There's always next year...maybe on a new team, perhaps?!

I voted a few Phillies and Red Sox...I even put Johnny Damon in there.

I was listening to ESPN radio and I gotta agree with one of the guys that said they didn't like the rule about having every team represented. I don't like it either. It takes away from more deserving players. I say, if you have 4 great players in New York, but you need to just pick 2 because of a team like Baltimore...it's unfair to those other 2 players who have clearly earned a spot. No one's watching the All Star Game to see the Orioles play. (Sometimes, I don't think the Orioles want to see the Orioles play haha! Though, they did beat the Red Sox last night. Kudos to them for that.)

But, Why put an Oriole in when you can get a big name from Tampa or Toronto or something?

If I were a team like Baltimore (and if the MLB changed the rules of having all teams represented) and they didn't have to play, I would use the All Star Break to improve, not risk injury or something and worsen your team which is in last place...as usual.

Just a thought.

I just put in my final votes for Paul Konerko and Shane Victorino. Who did you all vote for??? What are your thoughts?

REVIEW - "9 Innings from Ground Zero" (Documentary)

I watched this the other and cried within the first 10 minutes. It was sad and uplifting. Somber and hopeful all at once. It just goes to show the true nature of New Yorkers. We may be viscious to visiting teams, we may be loud...but we are passionate and loyal and have so much heart, even in times of despair. I remember what I was doing on 9/11. The planes crashed just as I was changing classes. I remember how scared we all were. How sad we were for those who had lost their lives. TV was showing footage around the clock. It was nice, for just a little while, to be distracted and like they said "Get lost in a baseball game" as we all had before. That World Series made it possible for us to believe that we could go back to normal and that things really would be ok again.The Yankees aren't just a baseball team, they represent where I'm from. Hell, they represent who I am and all the good of being a American.

And being American is as simple as a baseball game, no matter what team you cheer for.

Never forget - 9/11/01

What I Did The Day After Bin Laden Got Killed...

...The most American shit I could think of, son!

1. Filled up my Jeep with a fresh tank of gas
2. Went shopping
3. Ate french fries and drank lemonade
4. Listened to Bruce Springsteen
5. Squeezed my big American tits into a tight ass shirt and didn't care that I might offend someone...coz, It's a FREE COUNTRY! lol
6. Drank a refreshing Pepsi, Tab AND Coke while sitting by a pool and laughing with my friends of varied nationalities while giving a thumbs up
7. Watched the Yankees game while thinking about a Nathan's hotdog (there Sue, satisfied!? lol)
8. Wore Hanes underpants and Levi's jeans
9. Paid taxes while helping a little old lady cross the street and buying Girl Scout Cookies.
10. Voted...twice!
11. Ate a McDonalds apple pie while using my ThighMaster and singing "God bless America"
So take THAT, bin Laden!
USA! USA! USA!

Pop Life: A retrospective (Written 6/20/11)

It's 3:15 am and I'm listening to my very first Backstreet Boys CD that I got back in the 90's. It's funny how I remember the tunes of the songs but not all the words. I never thought I'd forget them. It's funny how you think things will stay with you forever when you're a teenager.

I'm sitting here listening to "Quit Playing Games with my Heart"...half singing/mumbling words I can't recall and chuckling to myself remembering the music video. 5 men in their late teens and early 20's on a basketball court in the pouring rain with shirts open and white pants that turned almost innapropriate due to said rain. Totally makes sense for the song...smh lol

Still, it's pretty good music...the ballads, not the cheesy pop stuff. To think of all the hours me and my friends would spend memorizing the songs and singing them in our rooms (Laura's basement, too lol) and at sleepovers. We even made a little girl group and sang a little together, but we were all so silly about it that it never seemed to go anywhere. (I always thought I was the "AJ" of the group because I was sporty and edgy lmao! Laura was the "Brian"...naturally. Jen was the "Nick" because well...she wanted to marry Nick Carter.)

Memories like that make me smile, I guess that's what pop music is for. It might sound silly to me as a almost 27 year old woman, but at 17, God, did those songs make a shit load of sense to me.

I guess I really should lay off people like the Jonas' and stuff. We all had our "Jonas Brothers", whether we called them NKOTB, BSB or N'Sync...and for those into British pop...Five(5) and BB Mak. Five was actually pretty cool, one guy had an eyebrow ring...so edgy. And, you all know me and my bad boys...even the pretend ones lol

Anyway, I fear I will have many more nights like this as I have not gone through the crap I have in storage in like 3 or 4 years and most likely still have more Backstreet Boys junk I refuse to get rid of because they "could be worth something some day"...I say that about my damn Barbies, too (I know if my cousin Kristen reads this, she'll laugh. FN Barbies, man. lol)

Hell, a letter I wrote got published in a Backstreet Boys fan book in like 2000 or 2001 and you bet your ass I have that shit preserved lol

Is it time to let the past go? I don't know. It's still fun reminiscing.

But, just for the hell of it, that Backstreet Boys CD is in my car...just in case I drive by a basketball court on a cloudy day ;) lol

BSB- Quit playing games (Youtube)